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Sometimes our light
kisses the heart of another, without physical presence, it's a spiritual connect, a warmth we feel inside and out, a smile within, a smile we both can feel, a smile you seen upon your own face mutually, a soulful hug embracing us, through all miles, states, continents, time, space, as if our eyes are looking into each other though it us only looking blankly at nothing, yet each presence is known.. Each presence Honored, Loved and Cherished. I am grateful for these connections, Soul Friends, Brothers, Sisters, Guardians of Humanity, Beacons of Light. Thank you, I am so Thankful for every One of You Blessings. "We got This!" Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror
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Sometimes when rough patches appear,
I am moved to happy tears, for how resilient I can be and am. When I allow my whole presence to be bathed within my light, the many lessons I have learned, from my intuition kicking into overdrive.... I have no ability to stop, this massive overdrive, so in letting go, I surrender with my faithful heart, and everything that flew apart, somehow simply now, is whole again. I am so very grateful for who I am, for it is within my light, I have the powers to heal, and rise within any single moment. I have the courage, to overrule, the inner procrastinating critic, and embrace my Life with Unconditional Love... Be kindly, Thankful for how many times we Rise, Radiate, Recharge, and are Resilient. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror I listen, I give,
I absorb, I receive, I breathe, I love, I allow, I perform, I learn, I expand, I move, I observe, I forgive, I grow, I ignite, I share, I aspire, I flourish, I cherish, I inspire, I am as I openly become... I am as within my heart, taking action. I am living my truth, as I am Light. I am kind, as I live unconditionally. I am alive, as I keep experiencing life, I choose, I listen, I move... Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror When sadness sends trickles of tears down our cheeks,
May we Remember the ever flowing fountain of Light that gleams within, replenishes us with every release, every shudder, sigh, sniff, tear.... I know sadness is not easy, to feel, to express, to let go, to allow.... May the Light that you are, comfort you, keep you safe, and warm your heart, as the storm blows, as the walls crumble, as the darkness seems to be engulfing you... May you Know, your light never leaves you, you will not be rejected, abandoned, neglected, the Divinity that lives within you, in your breath, as you, your senses, heart, mind, body and soul... When sadness creeps in, allow all that you are to accept and embrace this path, without fearing, worrying derailing you, trust this course, take this course, and know even if others seem to fall away, and not have your back, the Light within, will always have your back, allow the Blessings to unfold accordingly, following the current you ride... Love your sadness, Love your Happiness, love your lessons, love your life, love your ride, Love yourself through thick and thin.. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror It is in my most difficult dark moments,
I must seek refuge within my light, to be reminded of the Blessings I overlook, while I panic, worry and emit energy that contradicts my original flow. It is in these times I must keep mindful presence of Peace, even when these moments are adversely affecting me. May in Moments of Difficulty, Our Reflections within our Tribe, be reflected back into us, as loving reminders of the Light we give off in naturally being ourselves. Even when darkness seems to be the only thing we think we can see, May We Know the difference we have made prior to this moment, and allow Our Light to swallow us up, so that our surge of panic is refilled with the Divine Warmth and Loving light, Knowing we can still be, within our storm that lives within the darkness. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror P.S. I Just had one of those dark curve balls, and so very Thankful for my friends reflecting my Light within their hearts, to remind me of Mine. xoxo!!! I restrict my light and others when I presume,
their responses as Negative... When I presume Negativity, I create negativity.. Presumptions restrict us, when we choose to limit ourselves, We chose to believe our presumptions. Presumptions are not facts, of actual experience, they are stories we create, we fabricate, to give us the results before anyone can respond, is like a self fulfilled prophecy. Detach from presumptions, redirect, add Loving intentions and positivity, create open space for Blessings. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror My Intentions for the rest of My Life:
May Our Hearts meld together, Gravitating our collective Illuminations of Love, Peace, Joy, Wisdom, Kindness, Empathy, Wellness and Gratitude, as our Global and Eternal Beacon, of Colorful Spirited Awakenings to all Humanity, so that it lifts veils, souls, and smiles upon all hearts, creating a huge and lasting impact on all civilizations.. As one Beating Heart of Divine Light. May Our only intentions come from within, the very fiber of existence, be manifestations of the Light, We all are.... -May Our Hearts, Differences,Lessons, Blessings and Experiences, meld, connect, co-exist, transform, cultivate, create and co-create, inspiration to embrace our world, within our own hearts, to give and receive, from within us to the world... We are all Light Givers... Cascading light is within our nature. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror May We Know, Embrace and Be. The remorse I have felt for years,
that obliterates my presence in the present. Within the slightest pang to my heart, I awoke, within me the understanding to a lesson created by my own thinking, unstrung a web I tangled myself within shame, guilt, resentment and Blame. I have been punishing myself with filth from my own thinking and reactions to how many times, I failed... The Lesson serves to forgive myself, allowing myself to embrace forgiveness, for my choices to react, to have made a mess of things, and beat myself up every time I re-bring it up, to evaluate, excuse, blame, shame myself for not only my actions, but everyone's contribution to the matters, beyond actions of my own... I was in a trap of justifying and okaying this punishment against myself, for the toll of my mistakes, my failures, constant deepening of the wound, the baggage of my thoughts, beliefs, reactions, the weight I chose to carry within, was my weight and how I chose to carry and hold onto it, as leverage against myself, was worthy punishment in my eyes. The remorse within, was my connection, reminder, of what I did wrong, I thought was part of the lesson, that I was doing right, but allowing the pain to continue, but controlled by me, not other people... I was confused, I confused myself, making things more challenging, more triggering, more difficult to assess.... Forgiveness is still very much my process to this very day, for every bend in the road still paves mistakes to be learned, and more to awaken within us, to Love, and Forgive... To deepen the Peace, to sink into my light, soaking in Love as my Presence, Forgiveness reacquaints us with our hearts, allows us to Love ourselves once again, allows the weight we have chosen to carry, to be lifted and free us from the grudges we hold against ourselves... Forgiveness allows us to heal ourselves from within and Brings Love back into the light and energy we emit so we can keep our presence in the now, and reclaim the beautiful Life we have here... Forgiveness is our connection, to Love, to kindness, to Blessings, for ourselves and others, Forgiveness helps us remain positive and happy wholly. We can not fully Love ourselves without Forgiveness. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror PS. I am still Learning that with Loving Myself, Forgiveness, brings both Peace and Gratitude, back within. Our Life is meant to be Lived,
within constant fulfillment, of our Innermost Truths, of Love, of Gratitude, of Joy, of Kindness, of Trust, of Giving, of Leaning, of Understanding, of Empathy, of Wisdom, of Experiences, of Knowledge, of Learning, of Knowing Sorrow, unfurling, unfolding, unlearning, becoming, being, creating, within, aloud within our actions, speech, interactions, In constant fulfillment, of our heart and soul, as we Accept, Fly, Crawl, Align, Soar, Awaken, Evolve.... Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror Sometimes, I Believe We are, our own riddle, to figure out and align ourselves to our heart, to realize our connection to everything... I Believe with everything in me,
though tears will fall from time to time, though sadness may knock, may push and shove me into a tumbling roll, though anger may rise, may singe my heart, my actions, and my words as it releases, though frustrations may stump me with confusion, though ignorance may shift me abruptly, though I may have moments I deny, disbelieve, disengage, though I may not budge at times where learning must happen before healing, though things are rather slow, lethargic and tedious, I have the soulful capacity to remain positive, rejoicing within, gratitude, happy, fulfilled, heart centered in acceptance of who I am right now, as I am. I am more than enough, to remain whole when messes scatter about. I Believe with everything in me, I am my own Intuitive design, Built to withstand, for what resides within, shields me while I Live, Love, Smile, Cry and Grow. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror I walk with the winds of change,
whether they come from behind me, or the wind comes at me. I walk with the strength of deep roots, standing tall, because of Love. Arms reaching stretched, branching from within, reaching further and further then previously thought possible... My wholeness meld into the Universe as expansion of Light, I walk, with wakefulness within and without. I walk, I bend, I play, I give thanks, I labor, I speak, I bow, I unfold, I mingle, I move, I lift, I inhale experiences each step, I exhale Lessons Learned and Blessings, this adds to my stride. I walk with the rains from behind me or coming at me. I walk with Gratitude, Loving Awareness of others, while I am on this Journey of Presence. I walk with presence into unknowns, mysteries, confusion, opened, as my Love, as my Gratitude, as my Winds, as my Light, as my Being, as change, as rains, as I trust, as I am, as you are, I walk. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror In Honoring my Heart,
I Honor the World's Heart, it does not matter if we have met or not, I send you Love, I send you laughter, I send you Hugs, I send you my Light, I send you Hope, I send you Kindness, I send you Blessings, I send to you, the reminder of the light within me, that I give and share, Shines in You too, so beautifully Strong. I am Grateful for each of You, as I am Grateful for my heart, In Honoring My Heart, I Honor you. -Sincerely, and with Love, Bless you. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror I have learned a lot about myself
when I have done things in the light of anger. I have learned about the Blame, guilt, and hurt that lived beneath it, that had nothing to do with anyone but my own reactions to my own expectations. I just never belted out, so how would anyone else know, what I kept silent within me. Most of the triggers I have, I know the buttons to push, I know what it does, but what I didn't know for the longest of time, is why I held that against others rather than calling myself out, for holding myself a prisoner to the broken record of my past. "I believe our emotions give us keys, to many locks that after enough frustrations, we learn to forgive ourselves through self-love, and the Pandora boxes within old hurts, reopen with new eyes, and we see ourselves as we were, when those experiences happened, with the wisdom we have already gathered... Treasures reveal, we perceive opened, a whirlwind of understanding clears the fog, and the Blessed lesson is seen, for what it is... We pick up the lesson, learn, and get back on track." Everything can be built into stepping stones upon our path. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror Through self-love,
we create an Opportunity to fully Love, Honor and Appreciate, what has been overlooked by many, and Love it, By Ourselves, for Ourselves. To appreciate, To Grow, To care, To tend, To love, To accept, To Forgive, To be Grateful for, To Learn, To radiate, To acknowledge, To remind, To Reflect, To see, hear, feel, smell, taste, To be, what we seek, To wholeness in our own Light, in our own arms, with our own two feet, Shining. That to me is the Best Feeling in the World, and to share, is to Double, our Blessings. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror All the times I have felt broken,
All the times I felt I was but an empty seat, All the times I kicked myself deeper into a rut, I was more whole in those moments, then I knew, at the time. Those Fighting moments, Those Mentally exhausting emotional rifts, were Blessings, Polishing the Gem I have always been. - It Took years of frustrating, ground breaking discovery to learn that, all that was..... My only lack, my only huge mistake of a lesson needed to learn then, I Harnessed Later. The Solution then and now, are the same, it's Love. Unconditional, Whole, LOVE!!! I needed to Love Myself, instead of looking for others to fill the void within, Instead of finding something good and Blaming them for not filling it enough to make me really feel it, so I would madly, throw it away, holding an angry grudge against them. I wasn't really mad at them, I was more angry at myself for not realizing what I sought for, laid simply, within me. - I had to recognize, believe, work through, forgive, but most of Love, myself, as is. - I am so grateful I took this risk to challenge myself, to convince myself of this weird answer, To unfurl, dis-entangle, unravel the strings I attached, Let go, release the poisonous webs, I clung to... I Released... Into Ownership I went, I traveled over hills, ruts, puddles, and met myself down a bit, and to the left side of my chest, and though it felt like a hot dry desert, with little to none stats of salvaging what could be there, I discovered my heart, sighed with relief, and surrendered to the fighting, the blaming, curled myself into fetal position allowing myself to be engulfed by the Light that never left, me. I had a long gentle embrace with tears rolling down my cheeks, each drop that fell, was one of forgiveness and of gratitude, even though I was still lost, As I reacquainted myself with Love, I remembered this light, was me and was overcome with love. I have planted that seed, remembering I was never broken, I was just blinded by the unknown, I plant myself each day rooted and love, I plant myself into the seas of Gratitude, and I keep plowing through. Never forgetting what it took, and allowing myself to be the wind beneath my own two wings. It is worth a Thousand hot deserts, impassable Hills, and ruts to rediscover Love within. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror ( Remembering who I was, within the past 9 years ago, prior to where I am now.)
- Everything I rebelled myself against blindly to please others, didn't work. Everything I allowed my fear to run me over with, didn't work. Every time I hid, it didn't work. Every lie I told through reasons and excuses to cover my ass, didn't work. I never got peace of mind from, avoiding ownership. Denial drew out, the worse case scenario possible for me every day, I was literally engulfed with the drama I created, externally through many faces, only reflecting the conflicts within me. I lied and disliked myself for years. I was so scared, numbed, desensitized by everything, it seemed. I did not know what it was to be me, Would I even like this person? "No! I didn't like me," I emitted that very strongly from within, and that is exactly what I got. - And for years I carried this burdening baggage, blending very well with many lost souls of gossipers, haters, hypocrites, the gimme gimme takers, that crowd, kept me hidden, beneath piles and piles of Bullshit, like I thought I was. - I later discovered, to listen within, I hadn't ever been taught that. I was told to listen, obey, and do it quickly or else. So listening to myself, making things right within myself, was really rough to go against the grain, of me. But I dug, deeper then I knew at that time was even the slightest bit possible. as I traveled through many dark tunnels within, I discovered I was projecting onto others, the very abuse that was done to me. - Holy shit, I was abusing myself! I was causing more self harm with every lie, excuse, reason, avoidance, allowance and dislike. I didn't know what mindfulness was, or how to replace negative thoughts with positive ones. I really only knew the difference between yes, no, stop and go. I just felt a lingering ache within me, every bad choice I chose, A great indicator was, how much chaos, stress and drama rippled forth. - Every Time I felt that horrible, hanging almost strangling guilt lingered, it became what guided me. Guilt built my path, that pang of pain, was what guided me into saying no, and stopping what I was doing, to go another route. I progressed with Honesty, Boundaries, and Ownership more than I have ever regressed, overall. I proved to myself, the strength I had all along. Choose to Listen to yourself, Choose to notice things as you progress, Choose to Be Courageous. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror “Ten steps forward or Five steps back, I can love myself in Either direction.”
Change used to scare me, being within the space of versatility, meant I would have to adapt, and honestly that was something I feared, along with not knowing if I were to be rejected, abandoned, a horrible mistake or worst case scenario be replaced. The Unknowns was not a place, I thought I could ever embrace, or be okay with. I was more comfortable with pasting a grin on, and acting "fine." Fine, I could deal with it, tolerate it, because within me, I had a place of mysticism within my mind, painted with joy, because my actual life did not have that, it hugely lacked around me, through family, through my friends. Plus I was hugely comfortable with being cold to myself, because it was predictable, and I didn't have to adapt. Again, like the so many times we do in life, I got sick and tired of, the stories I repainted in my head, trying to convince myself this was the safe way to go. Layering excuses, pissed off at the whole world, at myself. I didn't realize then, I was causing more damage to myself staying that way. I stepped back, I took a breath, almost didn't come out of my pause, Walked to my bathroom, flipped the light switch on, and there I was... Looking at myself, in the eyes, looking at my mouth, my cheeks, my nose, my colorless cheeks, the bags under my eyes, and before I could go into the judgments of how I looked, I felt a fire burn within me, I tried again to lie to myself that this change is bad, that change is gonna screw me over, big a mistake. My facial expression in the mirror, including my eyes, literally looked like I was dying, phrase by phrase, I lost color, I lost sparkle, I went from firmly persuasive to yup you guessed it, crying... Crying but still lying to myself, blaming myself, my messed up family, taking out a huge rant of irrelevant crap and dumping on myself, with very degrading, vulgar words... Went from a Cry to a mumble, to this is not fine, what happened to me? Why did I numb out? Why am I allowing this? I can change, I do when I am with my friends, and I act differently with my parents, that's being versatile. Why do I make things more complex than they really are? I like change, it's fun, I have a whole wardrobe full of clothes, stuff, I change into. I change around my living-room all the time, and it feels different each time. I don't always shower at the same time every day, I don't only listen to one type of music, why do I resist this? I could use my imagination for creative solutions instead of using it for my hermit shell to stay stuck. Why Not? I am already adaptable, to people, things, my home, my food, the freaking weather! Why not just get off my butt, and go with it? no more what if's! I will just deal with that, when it pops up... Versatility here I come, here I stay, changes sometimes still get the best of me, I hit some scary times, but I remind myself of what was, and all I could do then, I remind myself how well I can adapt with changes and that is what keeps me stepping forward too. - What I learned from versatility: Ten steps forward or Five steps back, I can love myself in Either direction. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror  When I address myself & all my counterparts,
The fragments, the shadows, The skeletons, the secrets, The buried & bruised, The outbursts, the silencing, The deafening, the suppressing, The me’s within me. The all of me’s I contain, Within my stories, my truths, My own deceptions, my own, I own: I withhold, I weather, I expose, I shed light to, I reclaim, I outgrow. The means of me, The means through which I “live/learn/love/laugh,” The means I offer, I define, I permit, I direct, I overcome, I ignore, I deny, I face, I accept, I change, I forgive, I love, I like, I voice, I hear/listen, I sense, I create, I reconcile, I activate, I proactively give more of myself, For, into, gather, from, through, Finding comfort within the uncertainty, Within discomforts of contrasts, Do I find, do I discover, More to rejoice in, More to celebrate, Adding to the longevity Of this Mind, this Heart, This Body, this Soul, All these roles we do sincerely play, Within this life.. I am ever so grateful to be alive, To have… For this and so much more, Thank you! Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror In all I confront, Do I confess, My truths, my disguises, My rights, my wrongs, My changes, my illuminations, My surrender, my forgiveness, My dedication, my discoveries, My allowing, my resistance, My ignorance, my gullibility, My growth becoming my healing, Is my journey, My understanding, my awareness, My evolution… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror Yes, I confess through which I Live!   Giving into all I can get,
Rests and relies on How much I am willing to be given/created/released Or not given/created/released right now, As I am always served, Every moment.. Always and forever Birthing, growing change, Presenting itself here & now, Can we love, appreciate, accept, Claim, own, receive, give, share, Exchange, work through, Understand, respect, trust, Be honest, be kind? Can we open our awareness, admit our not knowing, Face ourselves, overcome, forgive, let go, move forward? As each moment comes, no matter which way, Can be valued for our becoming, For our choosing, For our creating, paving, building, Working forward and toward, Is what moves us… Giving into all I can get, make of, Learn from, lean into, Get away from, Is what we will it to be, From choice, Blessing or Curse, It rests and relies on us… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror  Into the collapsing of walls, disguises,
Restrictions, fears. Old ways, default habits, I allow the rising of; Suns, moons, skies, winds, Waters, lands beneath, around, Above, within, To encompass & be with me… As I release, As I invoke, As I embody, As I live, As I act, say, believe, give, build, discover, Create, share, dig, learn, expand.. Breathing, From my core, the soul of this body, My body for this soul, I, enliven, I animate, I emanate. I give birth to this life, Unfurling now, My presence, my love, my light. I am forever becoming and so does my life, Become more aware of what makes me, Come forth more pronounced, More alive, truly, wholly awaken, Into the unbecoming, Into the coming undone, Into all however it weighs or balances, Do I just beautifully, Become… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror  Slowing down,
Reserving my presence, My time, all that lives here, Within my energetic motion, Of thoughts, words, action. Investing as I am, I give into the space creating now: A gentle pause, A gentle hug, A gentle welcome, A gentle hello, A gentle alive awareness, A gentleness to my experiences, My healings, my transitions, And so giving my all, So I go forth, Slowing down, softly Nestling into having more Unstoppable peace, love, joy… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror  Bound to my heart,
All that I give, All that is shared, Within me is what I serve Through which is my service… Bound to my heart, Bound to the universe, That everything is connected And integrated with, This place within me, Within the universe, The tapestry called life, Is where I belong, Where all hearts far more than exist, But awakens more to be had, Of this life, living bound to love, Not fear, not negativity, not hatred, But to enjoy, but to expand, But to grow, because of Love, Because of light, because of our diversity, Because it is to live, to be celebrated, And honored… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror  As I gravitate towards all possibilities,
I defy all old no longer relevant selves, Beliefs, restraints… As I choose so do I invite, attend, initiate, Delve into and of my ever expanding self, To the wholeness provided, Here in this now... As I am gravitating, So do I emanate, thoroughly all that I was, All that I am, and all that leads to more Installments of expansions to explore… Taking in for the journey of who I am becoming, Who I will be, I magnetize all possibilities, now… In all that is processing, unveiling, creating, Is activated and welcomed, For it’s all, unconditionally and organically, paves. There is no resistance, When I willfully, participate Opening with loving happiness, To cultivate, Now… I gravitate full awareness, full exposure, Full receiving, full sharing, Full potential by being, Really readily willing of the sweet surrendering, And remembering of myself, As whole being, simultaneously, Mind, body, heart and spirit, As one living vessel dedicated, To all the spaces here continuously, Unfolding more, here’s for now… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror Be willing, Be patient, Be open, Be faithful to Your “Self,” Trusting your inner guidance, Trusting the light & love We are and always exuding with… Be unconditional, Be wise, Be kind, Be generous, Be and Give out; Presence, time, light, Respect, truth, abundance, Compassion, empathy, As to be a generator, A warmth of sun, fire, stardust, Which we all certainly are… Be intimate, Be willing, Be open, Be kindly honest, Be you, Being unconditional as within, So we put forth, So we attract, So we bring forth, So we give, share and breathe life Into our world, our universe, our circle, Our beacons of love, Beckons the rippling of effects, From within, Thoroughly to throughout, Above, below, around, All brings ascension. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror  |
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