 Deep down,
I am always extending, I am always breaching my comfort zones, I am always disrupting my default thinking, To remain positively open, connective to love and light… Deep down, Beneath what can be seen, heard, judged, I am very much awakened, In awe, in deep thought, Mindful of what is needed, What is loved, what is lived, What is brought, what is communal, What is intimately my power, my gift, My calling, my “me-ness” evolving, The losses and gains, balancing, Centering, grounding, awakeness, Coming from, going to, rediscovering, The aliveness I am, we are, the world is… Deep down, Deeply rooted, Not so far reaching, Depths of wells, within me, Granting all possibilities, In the wake of my every action, Every footstep deep down and out, All exposing, all emanating, all exuding, All permeating, all to impart, all significance, All momentous, all pivots, All transforms, deep down, In and all around, Inside in, outside in, Deep down… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror
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 How life speaks to me,
Like poetry, Like piano notes, Falling off straight into, My heart, Beautiful. How I speak to my life, Like rhythms, Like rollercoasters, Grinding the metal, Some days smooth, Or unbelted, I drop, I fail, I get back up, I learn, I grind, I live, Alive I am, So grateful to be here, Amazed. How I blend all of me, Into the world, Like investing, Like devout, Piano playing my own soundtrack, Constructing my own path, Living all of me to its fullest, Never running out of creative potential, Being used, being voiced, being shared, Touching, smelling, hearing, seeing, Thinking, tasting all of life, Resonating, acting, Bringing, the beckoning of all I am, Front and center, However loud or soft needs to be, Both bewildering and astonishing, All at once, no matter how it forks, Beautiful, Beautiful, Beautiful… Holding on still, Holding on fast, Being here, So very here, Amazed, amazing, Living to amaze myself, Over and over again, Constructing, reconstructing, Beautiful, endlessly. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror I am with peace, I am with happiness, I am with love, I am with hope, I am with inspiration, I am with determination, I am with good health, I am with my choices, I am with my paths, I am with our world, I am with our humanity, I am with spirit, I am with strength, I am with courage, I am with truth, I am with myself & another, I am with learning, I am with thriving, I am with water in all its ways, I am with earth & all its creatures, I am with flames like wings inside of me, I am with senses, I am with flow, I am with awareness, I am with energy, energizing, I am with serenity, calming, I am with harmony, rippling, I am with identity, evolving, I am, we are, you are, they are. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror Nama-staying in my focus, In my service, in my grace, In my duty, in my collecting, In my steps, with this of my all, Now, now, now, steadily my foundation And all that I am building to come.   Grown up to give more than receive,
Learned over half way here. This needs to be balanced, mutual, Reciprocated externally and internally, Both are imperative to our whole Well-being, but to give out, We must give within. Giving must be inner-directed, Centered and applied to ourselves First, every time, before dispersing. Unlearning patterns, Of dysfunction, Through growing up, We carve a new way of being, A new way of loving, A new way of thinking, A new way of living, A new life with all our senses, And senses of being towards ourselves, Towards all. Through learning, We become our own allies, Unifying as we come together, Even if our paths only merge for a bit, Living separate lives, Going down different roads. It's not like we really ever disconnect, We just keep going, growing, becoming, More and more intune, attuned, Having a common center. Coming together and then leaving, Remembering, forgetting, Giving, receiving, in sublime ways and waves. So it is, this becomes and is Our life, growing through moments, Days, weeks, months, years, Recalling what is needed For our balance, To reclaim our hearts, Our souls, our bodies, our minds, Our peace, our light, our love, Our service, our boundaries, Our abundance. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror So we give, so we receive, We receive to give, We give to receive, Ever changing, Ever expanding, Always growing us, mirrored. The recollection inside, All of the Out of bounds, I have done, Was done, Am still overcoming. These unmentionables, Pivot points, I didn’t and don't, see coming; Alludes me, Intrigues me, Guilefully, whirl me, Beguiles as in enchants, me. The darkest secrets, The shadiest scars, The vigorous wounds, The disfigured memories, I behold, Within me, Within the most intimate Of flashbacks, Such disturbances of the checks and balances, Within me. Knowing, Discerning, Which is real, Feeling that its own pain morphs A life of its own that split my reality. How they used to surface, How they still reveal themselves in new light, Makes/made me feel bent into the surreal, Of what I, yet to overcome, Because within this blight, chaos, I out of instinct rely on the panic to override, so my “Know How” fully trickles out and manifests… These unmentionables of mystery, Stemmed from much earlier suppression, Survival mode numbing, blackouts, Tempting old, matter of fact habits, To become once again my default. In these moments, hours, days, As I feel dragged from the stability I thought I had, (which is my soul extracting me from my own comfort zone). I feel that every smear, slice, stab, seering scream, Rouses me, Heightens me, Revives me, Entices me to find a new way to resolve, through facing. Encouraging a healing to allow this coming undone, Be my own becoming, be my own soul’s signals, Initiation to become clear, disburdened… As to alleviate entire entities of old stories, Baring ghosts of past, pasts still within, Holding me alike, to a hostage situation, Procrastinating full acknowledgement, For a full release, to detach, to let go of, Such binds/bonds, as to wholeheartedly liberate myself Into the now, being had, to have... Investigating old me, to who I am now, Realizing how all these things are integrated, To still yet again teach me its lessons, The possibilities of blessings. In retrospect, All the light, I now am, being diffused… All that could be, let loose towards a finding, An encounter, a choice, a development, Momentum, progress, unsnarling all the Words and actions of before that has Seeped over, To come upon whole truths, whole experiences, To be recognized, permitted. Entrusting, myself with who I am to become, Because of every revisit, All unveils, where I am to go, Who am I to become, All in choice, whether be in hindsight, Always forthright, All rehabilitating, to enliven, awaken, mend. To resurrect backbone, fill with more light, Appeasing my soul’s agreements, And furthermore, live life to the fullest, While I teach, train, study, learn of myself, For myself, in service to my ode, my life, All of me, I invest! To and for, all of the worlds inside out, Upside down, I invest.. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror Gratefully invested in, all the treasures I contain, You behold, earth & memories, carry. We are conductors and illuminators, Peacemakers, creators, game-changers, Abundant with boundless resources, Inside out and of course outside in, Lean, get bent, arise, climb, burst, Celebrate, Invest, we’re meritoriously, Worth IT! (even upon recollection, all that Lives there, all that is there, here, Proves nothing more and nothing less of, Choice.)  Uncrossing of my own heart, I release all my self/not self betrayals. Every pinky promise unkept, I release all those guilt's. Uncrossed, fingers of ‘I swears,’ I release all disguised secrets, suppressed. Every shush, hushed, silence I took orders to behold, I release all those inner-depths screams, squabbles, as to Let my truths take full reign. For every shuddered lie, white lies, selective reveals, I release all my resentments with loving forgiveness… I am love, I am now. I am love, I am now. I am light, I am this now. I am light, I am this now. I am an ever-changing space, though I am whole. I am an ever-changing space, though I am whole. I am love, I am light, I am ever-changing, I am now, I am whole. I create, I transform, I choose, I pave, I bridge, I soar, I travel, I am freed, infinitely over and over again. I am restored, infinitely over and over again. Always, for I am now, love, loved, always! I unhook from every mistake, Keeping attached to the lessons/blessings. I release myself from the dooms that lay dormant, Holding onto such burdens, no longer here, No longer relevant. Being now, growing more and more here now, I am love, light, hope, strength, resilient, Unburdened now, I am... Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror   Tracing our minds back to our memories,
Tracing our hearts back to our bodies storage, Through our wounds, discovering what this Amazing retracing can stir up… May we honestly acknowledge what reflections Can offer, so much nutritional sustenance for upon First, second, third gaze, we tend to ourselves As the gardens we are… Reevaluating, what good needs to stay, what goods need to go, plus what needs to be taken Forward. Tracing our hearts back to mind, Tracing our bodies back to soul, We can discern the debris/blockages, Serve us, in proactive/preventive measures, Lessons to aid us to better choose, Here. Tracing is much like a loving caress, Grazing and identifying what gives, Gives light, bears shadows, strikes cords/pain, Becomes, to be faced, loved, welcomed, embraced, As to cultivate all that can exist will co-exist, Within us, within our subconscious, And our conscious consciousness, As to liberate us, as for us to navigate better, As to allow us to genuinely let us live, As to steadily allow us to consistently reclaim, Who we really are, at source, at heart, Beyond what our mind’s body sometimes remember, Our divine Identity... Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror  Lost wandering,
Though we feel anything but brave. Somehow we get through, Somehow we are able to navigate, Gravitates, to us something beautiful to come… Lost, as defined by all I contain within me, Within what I have gained thus far, I’ve learned that is the process of evolution, Of leaving everything we’ve ever known, Behind us, as we cross into the unknown. Letting myself be lost, Means to me, that I am honoring Where all possibilities lay. Letting uncertainty to be encompassed by my ‘Know how’ of faith, light, love and hope.. To permit new, to become undone, Unwound, unfinished, unfurl, As to allow the capacity to be replenished, So I allow, I grant myself open To flow anew.... Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror Lost solidifies me….  To rise, We have to let go. To grow, We have to widen our well being fully. To forgive, We have to love ourselves within. To love, We embark with, carry, give, share, build’s. To accept, We have to understand, come into learning, Come into knowing, awaken, become aware of. To allow all to be the blessings we need To carry forth, pave through, come full circle, So we can gather, take with us, Be altogether, Flourish and Thrive, We must, Progress… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror  So we are here,
On the moment, in this moment, For what this is, To be, may we, Embrace for all that ‘This,’ really is, Now, our utterly beautiful, softening not hardening, But all our truths becoming… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror Battles I have won, Conflicts I have made through, Shadows I have faced, Prepares me, helps me, Teaches me, Restores me, For I am consistently, Constantly, being replenished, To overcome all that may head my way, I am resourcefully, Always equipped. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror   Memo to Self,
Respected, whole of me, I am inexplicably yours… Within us, of heart, soul, mind, body, Everything that connects, Lays within access, The odyssey of Life’s adventure, All buried, all to be unlocked, Within us… Remember, And when you forget, I am always with you, Together forever… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror Dear Self, Illuminating always as we are... Our Treasury within, Of experiences, of thoughts, Of heart, of soul, of body, of mind, Sheathed by skin, Made from light, The infinity of divine, We are always becoming, We are always emerging, We are always retrieving, We are always strengthening, Deepening ourselves, Within, our incredible exposures Of expansions, of ascension, as we grow, As we live, as we are truly, authentically here, Such great wealth's we have, we hold, We offer, we receive, we are… For one another within, I am so grateful to embark on these Adventures together… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror  Into this now, I allow myself to heal. Into this now, I honor what needs to be let go of. Into this now, I accept what is here for me to invest Within, yet again, over and over again, investing. Into this now, I allow all that is here, to be my Fuel, My food, my water, my sun, my wind, my earth, My rocket, my focus… Into this now, I choose to be here, I choose to know I got this, Into this right here, right now, Giving my all, I am, and so it is… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror   I am as I shield,
I am as I project, I am as I say, I am as I think, I am as I do, I am as I believe, I am as I will, I am as I can, I am as I try, I am as I express, I am as I construct, I am as I begin, I am as I illustrate, I am as I bridge, I am as I unhinge, I am as I fuse, I am as always, As I choose, Within every moment, Whether I feel awake or asleep, I am as I choose, To be, to think, to say, to do, To bridge, to disengage, To grow into, to become, And so it is, My light, my darkness, My contrasts, I develop My, know how... Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror More Me...  Something we overlook,
Our bodies, Something we ignore, Our bodies, Something we use, Sometimes even abuse, Because we are ashamed, So we blame, shame, Ourselves within these bodies... Something we take for granted, Sometimes even forget, To honor, respect, love, Is our Bodies. Somehow even though OUR body Is our transportation, We forget to be dedicated, To its Honor, To its Respect, To its Love, Our sacred, Our beauty, Fascinating wonder, To care, to tend to. We displace it, We displace ourselves So far outside, leaning and grinding At the wheel of keeping up all activities, And engagements, That we misuse, Ourselves and get mad at the world, and/or ourselves, Instead of being dedicated and devoted.. I love my body, For it holds my mind, my heart and this soul, All that power, fuel, motivations, Contained in this beautiful Body, I have and I am to Be captivated by, Be empowered by and with, Have affection for, Have respect for, Have truth, trust for, Think the world of, Thrive with, Inquire into, With perseverance, With resilience, With admiration, With recognition, With whole acceptance, With authenticity, Worthwhile! I love me, myself, and I, Wholly, truly, majestically, Thoroughly through, There’s beauty in my every flaw, Scar, freckle, tear drop, I have went through, Went into, traveled through, paved, Built, created, all here with all my years This far, within this body, this life, We have lived, Dear Body, I love you, Thank you, I am sorry for not listening To all those signals, Please forgive me, As I learn more each moment, On how we care for one another, I will celebrate us more often, With care, with joy, with our combined Strength… I love you, I love us, Thank you for having me, Thank you for being so good to me, Thank you, 100 times fold, For all we have overcome together, We got this! I’ve got you, You’ve got me, Together and everyday We live, we shall rise together, More beautiful and more magnificent Each moment, each day, each month, Each building and expanding year… I love you- Self delving into self, Ever evolving together.. -Body speaking to mind, heart and soul! Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror We are amazing beautiful wholly, entirely, Infinitely, yes we are, each of us are no matter If we are naked, clothed or have make up on, We are organically, imperfectly perfectly, Ravishing!  My anchor word,
For each day, For each moment, For each experience, Feeling, sway to the winds, Warmth of fire, Every droplet of water Whether it be from the heavens above, My eyes, or a faucet, With the earth my heart is rooted too, Where I have sprouted and transported to, How I resonate, How I go, How I be, How I climb, How I process, My go to, My centering, My balancing, My becoming, My all, I Honor, I am honoring, Every aspect, Every element, Impression, expression, Expansion revolves, evolves me… I Honor each, I honor myself, I honor what is here, I honor what is shared, I honor the uncertainty, The known, the learning, I honor all that grows me, I honor the ways that pave Growing me, more truths, more discoveries, More adventures, more to savor and receive Of life, of within me, of outside of me, I Honor… Honoring each and every piece, Part, not whole to whole, However, all strides… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror I love my sacred, Whole self, Inside out, Outside in, Intuitively, Physically, Mentally, Intimately, Emotionally, Spiritually, Verbally too… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror   In the avenues of previous experiences,
What is within our own thinking that Breaks us, shakes us, fracturing us more.. Allowing fears to live presently, Allowing us to get lost in its circus, Allowing all excuses to be used as reasons, Allowing every ounce of our strength to drain from us, For whatever we imagine, overthink, assume. Allowing that to confine us to “What we think were worth,” Or “How we can so easily compromise ourselves, to settle, To put up with, to not move forward, to hide, to deny, To say, we have the proof we already need, has been gotten,” Though we have sincerely already outgrew, Each of those “There’s.” In the avenue, here at our feet, Here within reach, of this right now, Here…. Why do we allow so much of our past To be the “Dictator,” To be used and abused at our cost, To be what, how, why, is determined... Incubating ourselves, Invested in our inventions, Of perpetual “Hellish,” cycles/patterns, Because “WE’RE USED TO THIS!” Assembling ourselves for nothing, But STRAIGHTFORWARD SELF SABOTAGE, And yet we project blame outside of us, Instead of actually leaning in, Owning, honing ourselves. Realizing and connecting that all that came before this, Were lessons, blessings, connections, For us to MOVE FORWARD, For us to FACE, For us to WORK THROUGH, For us to GET BETTER at LIFE, Get better at learning, unlearning, Living, letting go, Growing, and most of all, Because of our past, We know our boundaries, BECAUSE WE had those lessons, To get wiser.. Not to rinse as forget, And repeat over and over again, Until our hearts have bled that last drop, Hardened, bitter, never able to outrun assumptions, Making them into only deceitful facts. CHOOSING, “Never,” consistently! Enabling our habit, our history, So what we already did, so we do… In the avenues of previous experiences Its okay to stumble, its okay to crumble, Its okay to hit the wall, its okay to change attentions, Directions, paths, beliefs, its okay to make mistakes, Its okay to unbecome, its okay to slip up, Its okay to regress, its ok to grieve, Its okay to not do anything temporarily, Its okay to not be ok, its okay to feel discouraged, Its okay to not have anything or everything together, It's okay to let ourselves be! Its okay to be stumped, to be confused, its okay to feel, It's okay to think, it's okay to say, hear, be, do, Shut out and unplug, as to disengage, But in My book, inside the knowing of my own heart, Even when we don’t feel it, don't see it, Try to hide from it, deny it, try to project, Or protect it... WE GROW!!! IT happens, Subconsciously, consciously, Physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, It happens, organically! Be engaged in it, CONNECT! Be “REALLY,” here, we have a great resource Within us, ALSO from what we gathered along the way, And all that is here, plus what is yet to come… Let the avenues so quickly approaching us, Be invested in, Trusting the process, Allowing the progression, Letting yesterday's stay in the yesterdays, Working through, healing, Changing our wording, believing, becoming, Being, to all that is now, new and us Outgrowing what was. Transmuting into what is us learning, To embrace the new, Beginning again, Learning every moment, Always allowing that unbecoming, To be OUR BECOMING, Something better, Something fantastic, Something new, Something true, Something unleashing all possibilities, We GET to choose to look at, differently, Because right now is different, Than what we have already lived through, That got us here… Utilize all the nutrition From the days before, Utilize all that lays within us now, So we can LIVE, Learn, LOVE, soar, SMILE MORE as to align, To realign, readjust, reclaim our way, our voice, our truth, Our attraction, and be our gravitation of our own rhythms.. Making sense to make sense, Making ourselves to make something, Build, face, deal, create, heal, flourish, Thrive… All we have to do, is break the molds Within us, that keep us, BLOCKED. “Getting ourselves OUT of our Own ways!” Onto Unlocking, unleashing, shedding, All the rays of light we truly behold, Choosing refinement and evolution over confinement! Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror All is well, can be, will be, when we choose to Grow, Not knowing everything because now hasn’t happened, Before today! I am capable, I am equipped, I am proof, I am all I need, For whatever storm comes, For whatever comes, I can and I will, Overcome, Surpass, Achieve, Through the love I am growing, To become, day in and day out. Builds me, my strength, My courage, my trust, my abilities, My truth, my movement, My directions, my choices, Widens & expands All that I was, into who I think and know myself to be. For all that is coming, to become, I am capable, I am equipped, I am proof, To which I prove to myself over and over again, Just how far I can go, Just how strong I am, And my determination will never diminish, Just as the light is within me, Watch me go, Watch me grow, Watching myself, Cycle through, Become.. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror I create Miracles!   To soften my path,
To soften my sight, To soften my thinking, To soften my believing, To soften my knowing, To soften my being, I went where I had never gone before, Felt what I have never felt before, Allowed an acceptance of unknown, To experience life in new ways, Like I have never before.. Allowed the pain, the thickly intense Tensions and fear I had before, Transport, transmute, transform me, While being in its middle storm, Unclear of what was coming, But empowered by what all came before, Somehow, even though I was scared, I found my footing, I found a way to navigate, Within the never before now’s that became my present… Allowed all that was transpiring be what it needed to be, Allowed all that was there, be here, be accepted, Be felt, be expressed, be allowed the spaces it was Just in works of creating, such spaces to be emptied and filled, Intuitively, spiritually, emotionally, mentally and physically…. Though it felt like hardening, restricting, it was nothing, But my very own resistance of the unknown, Having to leave, let go of all that was known before, All that was, becoming what I built my comfortable with, I unbecame, I unlearned, to rediscover though I felt displaced, I surely was not displaced, disconnected, distraught, I was discovering, exploring, overcoming, becoming What I needed to get through… For all the aches and pains I allowed myself to surrender too, For all the inabilities I thought I had, For all the moments I felt that giving up tug, For all that I was scared of, For all the push back, For all of the uncertainties, I engaged, approached, went through, got through, With love, with strength, with trust, with faith, with hope, With positivity though it didn’t feel like anything good, But drowning, loss… It truly, sincerely wasn’t, Wasn’t as bad as my fears lead me to believe, To force myself to resist, I Let go… I accepted, I was okay not being okay, I was okay with this discomfort, I was thoroughly through this storm, okay. I became my proof to just how much I have learned, I can handle, I can weather, though it felt threatening, And I was worn out most moments, meanwhile the storm was approaching, Becoming, and felt relentless while within it. Allowing discomfort, Allowing uncertainty, Allowing myself to be whole, while feeling blown up, Blown outta proportion, scattered, torn, So did those, so did I, so did all, Contribute to the otherside. As all, Always connects, always becomes full circle, To where I am now, From all the not knowing I've had thus far, We do get to a clearing, That gradually always softens, Softened I am, where I am now, I am building, creating, experiencing from, Though it was quite an adventure and challenge, I am here, still… I am learning still, And oh how I still amazingly grow, Overcome, rise and keep at this beautiful Moment constantly giving me moments, I not only want but need, To carry with me forward, That softens me still, For I am not done with my work, My progress, my ascension, My unbecoming to become... Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror  I had no choice, But to relinquish control, And where that left me, Was within what was there, Which added experiences to What is here with me, To take forward.. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror Proof! Sitting within uncertainty, Feels like an eternity, Uncertainty plugging along, Allowing each now to be felt, Observed, experienced, For each part of its rollercoaster, Trying to stay positive, While scared shitless, The days, weeks, months, Go on, we go on… Living within those moments, Those days, those weeks, Felt like eternity, But now looking back, It was merely quick, Digesting all that transpired within me. The strength it took to get me from one moment to the next, Unreal, but I overcame, I faced, I made it through, Though it felt like though I could Smell the roses, see the sunshine. The not knowing used up my smile, Consumed my presence, With its shadows, And I stayed mostly positive, Mostly there... Allowing myself, To let myself be in the unknown, Letting myself not be okay, Letting myself be okay with not knowing, Everything now feels but a nightmare, The kind of one, I have a hard time forgetting. Something out of my control pushed me into The place outside comfort, Off shores, sailing into a smog, But These recent days, I have come to the otherside, And all that I did not know, I know now, Has surprisingly, come full circle… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror Healing now, as I have come To the otherside, there is now An understanding of what uncertainty holds, Offers, gives, shares, becomes, As it was fully embraced, No choice but to be there, Became the building blocks For whatever could come my way, I can and will always be able to navigate Through…   Becoming brave,
Becoming ok with not knowing, Becoming a deeper sense of acceptance, Becoming grateful for what was, For all the signals I leaned into, and let me sway into. Becoming aware, Becoming here, I am, letting all that lead here, be loved for what it was. Becoming here, I am leading into each right now, fully awakened, fully here, letting my fears, truths, emotions, all that is encompassing, surfacing, experiencing, be shed into light. FOR all that has come to light now, will expand more light than I knew I was capable to expel, within the darkness I feel in not knowing, of my now... All will be well, All will come full circle, transmuting on its own time, back into light... And Until then, I will allow what flows, to flow unrestricted, not nit picking, not labeling, not judging, not saying it's right or wrong, allowing myself within all of this to be, let be, because allowing this, I stay open and receptive, To all the miracles, blessings, Goodness coming my way… Letting me come to terms, Of what Soulful Brave is becoming, Letting myself begin to unfurl It's, amazing definition. As I am beginning this new path, New experience, I let myself unfold, Unwind, untangle, unlearn, To become, the Better Brave I need to be, Now... Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror In my own space, In my own world, Within me, Within here…. |
Writer:I am originally from British Columbia Canada, but have lived in Iowa, USA, for several years. Mom of four, Married and Hello, I am Archives
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