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I speak passionately,
and rather Loudly but Lovingly, what My Heart, My Soul, and Whole Being Loves, what I am drawn too, and what I learn along the way. I am as Vibrant as my Light is within me. 2023 © Miliauna Paluna Reflect or Deflect,
Absorb or Shine, We Always have a Choice, Choose in every moment What’s Best for you Is always Up to you! 2023 © Miliauna Paluna Everything you think is hidden within you,
shows its light through all you do, May you heal the broken thoughts you have about yourself, and know that with Loving yourself, Everything will heal as soon as you come to face with them, Tend to them as if they are simply, weeds needing pulled out, Loving yourself feeds Your needs, as soil, water and sunshine do Flowers. 2023 © Miliauna Paluna It used to be so Alien to me,
I felt for so long, Guilty, to follow my heart's song. To give Love to myself, so I could give to others... Shedding this Belief, so ground into our societies, bracketed with labels, Selfish, Self-Centered, because of Loving Ourselves.. Crazy! It took me so long to break free, to uncuff those beliefs myself, unlearn, everything, "Told to Believe," standards. Loving myself, was Alien to me, Questioning the why's to every constriction, I allowed, Upheld, Believed, without awareness... I made friends with that rebellious Alien, Unmasked, Lifted the Veils of Belief, and in process, I become less and less Blind, more of me pour out.. This Beautiful Light overflowed and changed everything unknown/ Alien, into gratitude, forgiveness, love. In Loving myself, I took courage, to question what was true to me, shifted in kindness, and became the very love and light, I was shocked to discover, Self-Love is a Selfless act of Connection, and my only Barrier to destruct, was me and my own closed belief. 2023 © Miliauna Paluna Choose to perceive
everything going on around you, as something that Builds you, Empowers you, Turn what could be holding you down, as the greatest advantage you have, Allow this rough spot to be your leverage to give exactly what is needed, Your ability to move through it beautifully, because it all depends on how you choose to see it. Change the Angles, and find the Blessings tucked within them. 2023 © Miliauna Paluna “Ten steps forward or Five steps back, I can love myself in Either direction.”
Change used to scare me, being within the space of versatility, meant I would have to adapt, and honestly that was something I feared, along with not knowing if I were to be rejected, abandoned, a horrible mistake or worst case scenario be replaced. The Unknowns was not a place, I thought I could ever embrace, or be okay with. I was more comfortable with pasting a grin on, and acting "fine." Fine, I could deal with it, tolerate it, because within me, I had a place of mysticism within my mind, painted with joy, because my actual life did not have that, it hugely lacked around me, through family, through my friends. Plus I was hugely comfortable with being cold to myself, because it was predictable, and I didn't have to adapt. Again, like the so many times we do in life, I got sick and tired of, the stories I repainted in my head, trying to convince myself this was the safe way to go. Layering excuses, pissed off at the whole world, at myself. I didn't realize then, I was causing more damage to myself staying that way. I stepped back, I took a breath, almost didn't come out of my pause, Walked to my bathroom, flipped the light switch on, and there I was... Looking at myself, in the eyes, looking at my mouth, my cheeks, my nose, my colorless cheeks, the bags under my eyes, and before I could go into the judgments of how I looked, I felt a fire burn within me, I tried again to lie to myself that this change is bad, that change is gonna screw me over, big mistake. My facial expression in the mirror, including my eyes, literally looked like I was dying, phrase by phrase, I lost color, I lost sparkle, I went from firmly persuasive to yup you guessed it, crying... Crying but still lying to myself, blaming myself, my messed up family, taking out a huge rant of irrelevant crap and dumping on myself, with very degrading, vulgar words... Went from a Cry to a Mumble, so this is not fine, what happened to me? Why did I numb out? Why am I allowing this? I can change, I do when I am with my friends, and I act differently with my parents, that's being versatile. Why do I make things more complex than they really are? I like change, it's fun, I have a whole wardrobe full of clothes, stuff, I change into. I change around my living-room all the time, and it feels different each time. I don't always shower at the same time every day, I don't only listen to one type of music, why do I resist this? I could use my imagination for creative solutions instead of using it for my hermit shell to stay stuck. Why Not? I am already adaptable, to people, things, my home, my food, the freaking weather! Why not just get off my butt, and go with it? no more what if's! I will just deal with that, when it pops up... Versatility here I come, here I stay, changes sometimes still get the best of me, I hit some scary times, but I remind myself of what was, and all I could do then, I remind myself how well I can adapt with changes and that is what keeps me stepping forward too. - What I learned from versatility: Ten steps forward or Five steps back, I can love myself in Either direction. 2023 © Miliauna Paluna Within the unfolding promise to myself,
to forever stay authentically me, I forgive those who have wronged me, not knowing that there much more healthy ways to resolve things, I forgive those that Love with conditions, not knowing how to utilize love unconditionally without judgments, because they are growing at their own pace, and just because they are going in different directions, doesn't devalue my path.. I forgive those that did their best with the tools they had at the time, I forgive my own inability to not see the whole picture, ignore help, and blatantly, make things harder by standing in my own way, as I have prior to now. I forgive myself, for doing things in survival mode, that made things worse for everyone involved. I become stronger each day through forgiveness, and allowing things that belong in the past to stay there, no longer a burning knot within me that hurts. 2023 © Miliauna Paluna Be clear,
Inspired action, Unfolds, The joy within us, That we constantly have, Always in reserve, Always with us To carry out, To attract… Allow this light we are, To be revealed in every Golden opportunity, That arises within us, In every waking moment, Every moment that comes, I am present for… I am clear. I am inspired, action. I unfold. I am joy. I am always in touch with My reserve that refills, Constantly. I am my own living example. I am this evolving light. I am always unfolding, My golden opportunities, Through me. I am awake. I am immersed in every moment. I am present. All that I am, All that sees, feels, thinks, does, smells, tastes, Becomes, and is, Lives in the now, Creates in the now, Believes in the now, Explores in the now, Paves in the now, Attracts in the now, Is followed through In the now… I am that which Has happened, Happens, and comes my way.. Be clear, Get specific, Align in inspired action To your heart, Your luminous truth, Your joyful emanations of love, That we all exactly, truly are, From beginning to end, All the joyful bits we experience, Within, in the middle, upside down, And into every curve, Unfolds to us, through us, for us, Evolution, dreams being lived, Life being loved, Joy, always attainable, Always sustaining us, Always resurrecting us In bad times, to see its beauty, Bringing forth depths, And expansions, For renewals and renovations, I am becoming more aligned, More clear, more positive, More ready with every step, I am receptive, Willing, accepting, Utilizing everything now, So everything can and will, Always work out for me.. It can for you too, All that must begin, Is your belief and action, To match… Mind and Heart, Connect, Unfolding, All creations, With Love as we are, Unconditionally and vibrantly Creating our days, our moments, Our growth, our ascensions, And so it is, A life fulfilled, Living our dreams, Enjoying our contrasts, Cultivating our joys, All our days… Having fun, Playing and getting more, and more, Creative, every moment, We put our light in. Staying committed to Love and joy, That’s our truth, That’s our way, Letting this, Be lived, unconditionally, And all our purposes, Are let to become… I am purposeful, Every moment, Of everyday, For I always have a choice, To lead in inspired action, Into every now, Always…. I am always equipped, With innovative, unconventional, Intuitiveness, For what I am, Creates the reality I am given… So be clear, Rooted in love, Know all things are possible, And within everything, There is something good to be found, In resonance, in letting go, In truth, in light, in darkness, In now… Love Now! Love forward! 2023 © Miliauna Paluna |