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The Older I get,
The more unfiltered I have gotten, Which directly connects, To the experiences and truths I’ve endured, and I know I'm still growing… *The older I get, The more empowered I am to unapologetically, Speak my mind, Speak my heart, Speak my soul, Even if it comes across as Inconsiderate, I do sincerely care, About what I do care about.* More importantly, I’ve learned that wisdom Keeps revisiting me, To remind me where To not blurt or screech my voice box. We all have boundaries, Of what We give, take and share, But now, to this very day, I don’t hold back anymore, It all comes spilling out, And if I am still making mistakes, I am still growing, Learning at every stage, But unfiltered. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror2023
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Get Loud, Get however you please, Honor YOU, Love YOU, Indulge in the luxuries It is to be YOU, 24/7!!! ‘YOU do YOU’ Live it, Celebrate it, Rock it, Sing it, Be IT… Have fun for fucks SAKE! Get Silly, Get fired up, Get inspired, Get Happier, Get it! Get at it, Not later, NOW.. I love being me, Love Being YOU! Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror2023 Get smiling, Get laughing, Dress up for yourself, Go, GET at whatever perks you UP, Makes you feel more alive, But…. Do it Now. Fun time is NOW! Now, now, now.. Celebrate letting our Crazy, weird, quirky flag fly high! Truth isn't all love and light sprinkled with positive shit.
The truth can be life threatening, scary, devastating, Shocking, dark, twisted, bloody, messy and spiritually, Emotionally, mentally, and painful. Being called out, Calling ourselves out, Like reality, Is not rose colored glasses, Denial of what is really afoot, Kind of an ordeal… There’s no sugar coating, To downplay what is really happening, When we are faced with the truth, Of others, circumstances, consequences, And ourselves… Truth no matter how it is received, Confronted, put, Most of the time happens, Like a jolt, smack, shocking us awake, A realization, That we must, That we know we have; To accept, To deal with, To eventually figure it out, Maybe get some understanding, Maybe never getting any real closure, But in all actuality, The truth is something needed To experience, To gather, To sort through, To validate, To evaluate, To live, To carry, Or get rid of… The truth, The many truths we have lived through, Barely scraped by from, Are not, Soft, rosy, comfortable, or full blown magical comforting positive fairy dust.. Some positivity is good, But most is sugar coating bs, Instead of bearing what it means to be vulnerable, Rough, raw, the goods of a what brings Solidifying our foundations to build upon.. Being real, is not pretty, it’s not fun, It’s not light and fluffy, It’s fucking heavy! Not everything is love and light, A lot of it overlooks, Judges the negativity, And that there, causes more harm and toxicity, To one's being.. Let your truths out, No matter what anyone else says or thinks, Our darkness isn’t beautiful, Our overcoming some of them, or all of them, That’s when we find beauty, That’s when we can look back with Gratitude, positivity, But when we are in process, Bearing all the shattered glass, brokenness, Terror, grief, losses, exposing our wounds, Crimes against us, crimes of not our fault, Coming to the truth, the waves thrashing us, Or the memories and flashbacks to what we’ve blacked out, Flood back in, There’s no peachiness, in those truths being revealed, To us… Truth isn't all love and light sprinkled with positive shit, And that is the real truth, the reality of everyone, Living their lives the best they can, No one asks or begs for the shitty and fucking twisted truths We've experienced… Being part of the toxic love and light culture is a choice, To each their own, But I prefer to live without the sugar coating, Live my truths no matter how ugly and fucking messy it gets, However they arrive, land, Or I am swept up and away with, My resilience has been built from those truths… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror2023 Those shitty truths, Brought back my humanity, Served me the wisdom, I carry with me, still. (WARNING; Some vulgar words in here, if you can't handle the blunt truth, I'd skip this post, all this is me calling myself out)
Can you count on yourself? Do you hold yourself accountable, For the way you do or don't do things, For the way you say one and do another, For the excuses and ignoring, Especially during difficult times, Can you follow through and hold yourself accountable? Is everyone really letting you down? Or is it perhaps us letting ourselves down, Tolerating being a doormat because you are that for someone else, Betraying yourself, staying silent, passive, accommodating Or overcompensating for someone else at the expense of yourself Taking on their burden as yours and yours alone to carry.… Do you enjoy misery? Do you enjoy being disrespectful to yourself? - It feels like we don’t matter, And most of the time we project that onto others, Instead of being accountable; For our thinking, suppressing, denying, Our forgetfulness. - For our own unwillingness to have boundaries, For our unwillingness to stand up and use our voice, Unwilling to change for some petty excuses, To stand and face ourselves and all these Default perceptions and beliefs, Holding ourselves back, It's not anyone else fault, It's our own… Own it, Accept it, Utilize it, We matter, Our needs, our wants, our desires, Our truths, our forward moving steps, Our delusions, our past baggage, Everything preventing us, Is within us, Which means all the resolutions lay dormant within us. To honor, To follow through with, To be uncomfortably honest, To revise what serves us, and What doesn’t, For our wellbeing… - I’m not inciting that we are fuck ups, I’m not inciting that we are damaged goods or broken, I'm not inciting us to mistreat or punish ourselves… I’m invoking your power To change by choice, By truth, by love, by light, by patience, By being willing to face yourself, To do the work inside, No one else knows any of this better than We do, because we are the ones living it. Don’t put up with being “Miserable” Because that’s normal or what you are used to, It's not okay, to dishonor yourself, And zap any ascension or happiness, To be present for your life, And TO GROW… - Living our life, As far as we have lived it, Took and built bravery, Took discomfort, Took heartache, Took and built respect, Took and built grace, Took ownership, Took and built experience, Took observing, Took Truth, Took gumption to fight, Took resilience after the devastation, Took You getting here, Building something you are Proud of, Took Strength, Took making mistakes, Figuring things out on our own,n NO matter what path got us here, That proved and proves, YOU matter… - Our Shit Matters! Our internal dialogue matters, Our inside complex processes, All we were, all we are, all we are to become, when we own our own crap, Meanwhile still living the life we have now, when we forgive ourselves, When and while we heal; Love, hold, let go, connect, live, Choose, redirect, unlearn, pave, change, Matters most for our survival transmuting into Us, Thriving… YOU matter, most to yourself, And that’s not selfish, That is loving yourself unconditionally And wholly… Honor yourself, Be accountable, Validate yourself, Empower yourself, To truly live YOUR life, To the fullest, DO the WORK, (it's not a say and talk about it in great lengths, to do nothing ordeal) Do the work, So you show up for yourself, THAT you do matter… - It’s a tedious journey, This so called life, Inside and outside, Of ourselves, But not holding yourself accountable for Your contributions, your participation, Your shit that perhaps you picked up and didn’t even Realize you act out, or talk to yourself like, Or treat yourself and others without noticing, That’s no one’s but ours… Prove your worth to yourself, Boost that self worth and confidence, So you know you can count on yourself, And that will ripple out and be reciprocated.. It will multiply the goodness, and quality of your life, More than 10 fold… - Stop weigh yourself down, Stop quieting your voice, Stop putting you aside, Start with just admitting, Journaling, secretly going to therapy, YOU don't have to do this alone, Its okay to reach out for help, And stop shaming yourself that you are less than a person, Because you need help to better navigate.. Love Yourself enough to get brave Follow through, to change that nasty narrative, To show up. And let changes and YOU reign, Because it is YOUR life to live.. Wanna get some relief, Do the work! Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror2023 Expand those pearly wings You behold. Time changes and so do I...
A lot has changed, what I thought was important to me, I've changed my mind about, and changed directions. There's so much, people really don't know about one another, even me, time doesn't change people, it's really about what you choose to do with your time that makes it count .. I have changed, I am more drawn to mystery and presence/moments, particularly more reserved now... I was an open book, expressive sharing of my art, prose, page, etc... I still do me, but bear it only closer to my heart, so if you aren't in my heart circle, understand active effort is the only way in, mutual too... I am happier with my small circle, my soulful heart circle, glad I withdrew, grateful that all the true colors been shown. I understand life carries us away for sometime, but I have to stick to my boundaries, just because we know each other through someone is not what I want as an active circle, I want a private, real connection... Time changes and so do I, I want to keep my circle small...( Will not explain myself) @Melissa Palmer of Evolving Mirror Damn those waves,
How grief arrives, Choking on tears Arising through my throat, How we process... How I process, Unpacking my broken heart Of losing my dad... We, dad and I, Together now, I feel time displaced itself While we were so far away And now, now.... Damn those waves, How grief arrives, While happiness is stumbling to be found, Felt, present... Right when I think I can climb out of this rut, Remembering you, pulls me back in... (I love you Dad.) Melissa Palmer of Evolving Mirror Waited over a year, To be with you, Though your life was lived, Your ashy remains Arrived today, Ripping the postal box open, To retrieve you, Was, the hardest part of my day, Since receiving the phone call, 1-22-21.... Uncovering the pine box urn, I trembled, crying 😭😭, To get to you... Now the tears just won't stop, I am taking you everywhere I go through my house, by my hand, like I've done when you were alive... Come and see Daddy, 9/8/2022 I finally have you, all to myself, All by myself.... Melissa Palmer of Evolving Mirror  Over flew, came undone,
And within its wake the ripples Hit harder than an open seas Wave swelling with power within a raging storm, impacts a sailing ship, Braving open waters that could very well Sink or flip.... Having experienced that, Only then, Only then can you understand the impact of grief and perhaps than love can be measured how it feels to lose, A Dad.. (Or someone we loved and lost ) Melissa Palmer of Evolving Mirror. As I am,
As for who speaks Thinks, feels, knows, Describes, reacts, experiences, Sees, tastes, smells, Walks, dances, explores, Learns, stumbles, responds, exudes, Becomes, unlearns, shines, Astonishes, resilience, surrenders, Cries, Laughs, Loves, loses, Forgives, pushes, regresses, perseveres, dedicates, focuses, Evolves, reflects, chooses, Lives… I do… You do… As I am, Speaks for itself, In all that is seen, All that is hidden, All that became, All this is becoming, All that is here and coming.. Evolving Mirror © Melissa Palmer What if there was no such thing as,
Rejection? How would we thoroughly differentiate, Learn, discern, grow, love, hope, Become, debug, Though we would prefer to not have The negative… Life is equally balanced and lived, Having both, As to better educate ourselves, As to offer us decisions, To grow or to stay bitter, Everything even the negative, Offers us the opportunity, To add colors and unfold, For what us contain, To be liberated, To be inspired, To shine, For no rejection, shock, hatred, How would we know love, How would we know pain, How would we know what it takes To face and overcome, How would we really live, If we have never knew what it was like to lose, So that we are redirected, To move, to heal, to get where We’ve only dreamed to go…. There will always be a pro to balance a con, There will always be a con to a pro, This tug-a-war, Gives us meaning, Sustenance, To live a fully, actually lived, Life… Be present, No matter what the potholes are, Allow everything, To be what challenged us, forward.. Evolving Mirror © Melissa Palmer Release it,
Write down then burn it, sing it, cry it out, paint it out, draw, drive.. Do what you need to do, release it, Find a creative way to uncannily dig it out, and let it go... never know what treasures you will find, never know how GOOD life will feel, or how relieved you will be until its let go, unraveled and RELEASED! So get on that... Allow that Pain to be loved, accepted, acknowledged, forgiven and allow the motion forward to start again... You deserve to have all the goodness in this world, Remove the blockages from within.. so you can live without it burying you alive Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror 2014- Our View of Love, May it connect Us all to what already exists in all of us.. * Blessings My Friends! "Love Lives in all of us, it connects us, it is the place in which we Thrive, It is always attainable, it is is always within reach, Love Exists and Co-exists in Each Other, When we notice the beauty in others, We Evolve within, and Mirror it.... Love is Unity, Love is Universal, Love is colorless and Brilliantly colorful at the same time, Love Lives in everybody, it is time to Open Your Eyes, Your Mind, and Be Aware that it lives in us 100% of the time, it never leaves us, and it surrounds us 24/7, it pops us through faces that challenge us, it shows up in the dirtiest, roughest, hardest, and tightest corners, It lifts, It knows us entirely, It is the energy that binds us, it is the energy of the very intricate fibers of Life... When we choose to not notice it, love shakes us, takes whatever measure it needs to take to bring your attention back to it, It is YOU, it has always been within, it exists within those you say you hate, dislike, can't stand, Love takes all forms, it connects us, collectively, diversely, abundantly, It bonds us to others, and ourselves, it binds us to our souls, to our minds, Whether we feel it, acknowledge it, or know what it is, We Breathe it, We Live it, We create more of it, It is our most essential resource, We use it to network, We allow it to guide us, We make it, We say it, We have Faith in it, We Respect and Honor it, We always cherish it, even if its masked by layers of experiences we hide, Love Lives on, after our death... Through Self- LOVE, Love expands, evolves, ripples, reaches far past the star fields we have yet to discover.... Love Is Life, Love teaches, Love is mathematical, scientific, spiritual, telepathic, verbal, active, physical, emotional, written, thought of, explored, discovered, Love may be buried, Love lives in all of us, Love is Our Nature, though we feel we may not have any for ourselves, we still give it out, the only way to give something is to already behold it... Love is the frequency we all came to Life Through, to give, to share, to LIVE to the Fullest from deep within... Love is my seed in which I have stemmed from..." Remember to become Aware! Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror  My strength to overcome,
is quite the celebratory repeated Blessing, that still further intrigues, my curiosity to persevere with more devotion, dedication, and determination, with all of who I am, at stand still and in motion, of becoming. - Somehow, we have this innate ability to astound ourselves, over and over again, Honor it, and Be super grateful, for these Blessings are truly gifts... - Quite the Mouth Full of food for thought to honor, cultivate, apply, and be nourished within this shift. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror Steadily I climb,
Steadily I become more and more comfortable overcoming Challenges and rising from within discomfort.. Steadily I climb, Steadily I Rise, Steadily I arise from within, in full action... Steadily as I am making waves, I am bravely learning to surf with however it Flows, Rocks, Sway and attentive as is... Steadily, mindfully, and Beautifully I climb… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror from 2016;
I am healing what is within me, that is unhealthy, and lingers in the back corners of my body... Taking time to attend myself with whole presence, proves to trust myself, that's needed within this healing. Knowingly, I am creating better harmony for my whole well-being It is crucial for me to trust myself as I take steps forward, in healing myself, mind, body and soul not just at this time but thoroughly throughout this process, as progress can fluctuate quite rapidly... Honor your Pace, your stride, and the body in which you Thrive in... Honor the time, the presence, the love, the forgiveness, the grief, the roller coaster we all have, that varies... Allow, yourself to give what is needed, to keep going, gathering and growing.... Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror Blessings are so very sacred,
count every little one... Find every bit of them, for those Blessings invite us, to truly Love our Lives just a bit more, That's truly something to smile about... More to Love, more to rejoice about, more to cherish, more to be grateful for, Think about it, like marinade yourself in it, soak in all those Blessings, notice them, for as we drizzle our whole attention there, that graces us with expansion of more to come, for acknowledging and appreciating right now, is yet another Blessing in itself. Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror 7-2016-
Willingness, is your ability to lean in, when darkness takes flight, Willingness, is without excuses, more effort, action, determination, not being cattle ran or defeated... Pursuing, following through, keeping the promises you made a long, long time ago to your own heart, Energy you give of your time, presence, heart and soul in every present... Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror Sometimes just letting go,
lets things slide, letting people be around you that hold too much negativity within them, is allowing it to continue, wiping a slate to tolerate, just isn't worth it anymore... Sometimes just letting go, has to be done with kind assertive force, for it to truly be gone, for what we allow, will continue for how much you try to overlook it positively... Sometimes the truth is Blunt and so do your boundaries have to be, like tough love, to move forward, is to not keep allowing it in, giving in because of love, is you giving them permission to dump on you, that which is opposite of what is wanted to attract... Sometimes you can only do it for so long before you realize, you shouldn't have allowed in the first place, there lies the lesson... Sometimes you care so much, you realize too late how you allowed yourself, and your reserves to be trampled on... Sometimes, these things occur until our eyes see it, and we choose to actually change it... Let it be, let them be, but protect and honor your space always, and so it is… Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror |
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I am originally from British Columbia Canada, but have lived in Iowa, USA, for most of my life. Mom of four, Married. Hello, I am Archives
May 2023
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