Hard day

I am so grateful to have my mom through this.
It hit really hard about and hour and half ago,
My mom is truly wonderful we may sometimes not see eye to eye,
and have to agree to disagree... But when I am a mess of emotions, crying, kind of grieving yelling 'I want my dad back!"
She pulls me through it and helps me get to the other-side.
The book I was reading today really helped me understand how we all grieve differently, and how darkness /pain can paint our memories or how we recall them, can be illusions of wounds beneath surfacing now, meanwhile experiencing the stages of grief.
Helped me understand my mom when she lost her parents, which helped me understand my experience so much better.
Everything is connecting, everything's coming up and out, and I know all too well, each piece shattered and scattered, is freeing.
Even though right now, it doesn't exactly feel that way, My past proves to me, I can and will overcome this, my present is not my final destination...
Ending this evening, that turns into AM, a wonderful close...
Melissa Palmer © Evolving Mirror